Feeling a bit sappy....

Ok, so maybe sappy isn't the right word for how I'm feeling tonight (I guess it's technically this morning...) I'll just start from the beginning. So about 3ish hours ago, I started watching disc 3 of season 3 of Gossip Girl. My friend Miranda got me obsessed and now I'm trying to catch up so I've been watching all the seasons. Side note: it's really good!! Back to the point. About an hour ago, I started crying. Why? I have no idea. Nothing sad was going on in the show and so I was very confused as to why I was suddenly tearing up. As I continued watching Gossip Girl, it hit me. I was crying because I hate being single. I know, it's a stupid reason to be crying but in all honesty, being single for 4 years with only 2 dates during those 4 years absolutely sucks. I miss having a boyfriend, I miss going on dates or staying in and watching a movie, I miss walking around holding hands and cuddling. I've seen so many relationships start this past year and I've been to two weddings so far this year and for some reason, it is just tearing me up inside about being single. The thing that is killing me is that I thought I was ok with the fact that I was single. I mean, I guess if I'm being honest it's always bothered me but I thought I'd come to grips with the fact that when the time was right, I'd stop being single. It was during my sophomore year of college that I'd come to the decision to be fine with being single. I had prayed that God would give me peace about it and at least for a year, I felt that peace and I was truly ok with it. So why is this coming up now? There are so many thoughts that are in my head and to be perfectly honest, all of them are questions that focus on what's wrong with me. Why have I been single for 4 years? Why can't I get a date to save my life? Am I not good enough? Am I not pretty enough? Is there something about me that guys don't like? I've never felt more like an insecure teenage girl than I do right now.

I know that God makes everything work together for my good. I know that when the time is right, God will give me a man that is more amazing that I've ever dreamed of. I know that he will love me more than I deserve and he will help me grow in my relationship with Christ. I know all of these things, so why is it so hard for me to trust in it? I feel so ready to have this perfect guy that God has picked out for me and I just don't understand why after so many bad past relationships I still have to keep waiting. I'm not a very patient person and I feel my patience dwindling day after day. I know that this is all probably God testing me and its His way of getting me to trust Him more. I know I need to and I want to because I know not trusting God is worse than trusting in the unknown of what God will do in my life.

Sorry this post was so long, I just needed to somehow get all this out. This nice thing is that I'm not alone in this whole "I hate being single" ordeal. Good night lovelies! :)

It's been a rough couple days...

Hey guys, so I'm sorry that I haven't written in what seems like ages. It's been a little rough here lately. I guess I'll fill you in from the beginning. So two weekends ago, I went to Pensacola to see the wedding of Matt and Jess Seitz! It was a beautiful wedding and I'm so excited and blessed to have been a part of it! I got to hang out with some awesome people that weekend and it was a great weekend! Last Monday I applied for a new job at the bookstore at UF campus which will be great since I can't drive until July 1st (found out yesterday that I got the job! but won't start until July 1st, ironic huh?) Anyways, on to the news that has really put a damper on everything. Starting today, I will no longer be working at the daycare. Apparently this past Friday was my last day, except I didn't know that. I got to work on Monday and my boss was surprised to see me. Mind you, I never gave verbal or written notice of when my last day was. My boss had made a new work schedule and I wasn't on it and she had already promised this other girl my hours. So needless to say, Monday was NOT a good day. Yesterday was even worse because my boss told me she was going to try to work it out to where I would "share" hours with this new girl. I'm kinda over working there and I'm so frustrated that it might be good for me to not work there anymore. Maybe all this is happening because it's God's way of telling me that I should quit. I don't know, all I know is that I'm am emotionally drained. I hope today goes somewhat better though I'm sure it won't because I'm telling my boss today that I'm done and I say goodbye to all my parents today which will be very hard for me. Whew, so that is the update on my life. I'll be sure to update once everything is finalized. Have a great Wednesday lovelies! :)

Done Done DONEEEE!!!

That's right folks! This girl is finished with her last semester at Santa Fe!!! WHOOO-HOOOOO! This means...drum roll please......HELLLOOOOO UF!!!! I'm sorry, I just cannot contain my excitement!! I finished my last final today and I find out grades on Tuesday so hopefully there will be NO surprises! Tonight has been so relaxing, the most stressful thing I've had to do was laundry! I'm so excited for this summer for a number of reasons. Reason number uno, NO CLASSES!!! Reason number dos, I get to hang out with awesome people all summer. Reason number tres, three of my good friends are getting married this summer, yay weddings!!! Reason number quatro, I get to spend this summer wedding planning with my bff who's getting married next May! And finally, reason number cinco, I can FINALLY relax and I have time to read books that aren't assigned reading and I can devote time to this blog! So I'm really excited for this summer and I can't wait to share all my adventures with you!

My summer starts off with a bang as I am going on a mini-vacay this weekend! Me and a bunch of my friends are going to Tampa/Orlando to go to the beach and go to Harry Potter World!! EEEKKK! I'm excited, I haven't been yet! I'll post pictures once I get them! So I hope you all have wonderful plans for this summer and I'll be sure to update ya'll on my summer adventures! Toodle-oo my lovelies! :)

Oh What a Glorious day, what a glorious way that you have saved me!

Happy Easter my lovelies! I hope you have all had a great day with your families but also I hope you celebrated the fact that Christ is risen from the dead! Christ died, like He said He would, and He rose, just like He said He would and I'm so incredibly blessed that He did! Today has been one of those days that I wouldn't trade for anything. I had the greatest time going to church with my parents at their church and then eating Easter lunch with my family and my aunt and uncle. Spending time with my family is so precious to me and it was just so awesome to be able to be with them while we were all celebrating Christ's resurrection from the dead!

Off to study for my finals this week...eeekk! (Oh this is nbd, but I got an A in my psych class which means I don't have to take the final...but just like I said, nbd ;) haha toodle-oo lovelies! :)

I can see the end!!

It's almost the end of the semester! Seriously, only 4 days left of classes and only 2 days of finals!! EEEKKKK!!!!!! I'm applying for graduation on Wednesday!! And then I will finally, FINALLY, be done at Santa Fe and I will be moving 15 minutes down to UF!!! WHOO HOOO!! (Can you tell I'm excited???) Haha, anyways, this week will be crazy so I will probably not be posting anything until after finals which shouldn't upset anyone since I already do a horrible job at posting every other day anyways! But seriously, this summer I will do a much better job at blogging since I will not have school to worry about!!! There will be lots of fun stories and pictures and everything! Yay!

Here's my to-do list for this week:
1. Study study study!
2. Finish my science class!
3. Do my religion project...tonight...since it's due...tomorrow....whoops...
4. Make sure I have an A in Psych so I don't have to take the final!
5. Study my hardest for that dumb Topics Math class...booooo!
6. Study for Religion.
7. Apply for Graduation. Whoo-ohooo!
8. Eat and sleep at some point this week...
9. Clean my closet...that might have to wait until after finals...
10. Have a victory dance at 3 pm next Thursday cause I'll be DONNEEEEEEE!!!!!

That seems like a lovely to-do list right? Ugh, so much to do, and so little time to do it! Hopefully I'll stay somewhat sane this week...

Until after finals, toodle-oo my lovelies!

So blessed :)

Hello lovelies! So tonight was my last fish school of the year. I know, bring on the waterworks right?! But seriously, it was really sad, I kept holding back tears the whole time. I've grown so much in my relationship with Christ and it's because of fish school that it happened. Watching my fish kids grow in their relationships with Christ was more of a motivation for me because I want to always be someone they can look up to and come to for advice. I don't think it's hit me yet that fish school is actually over. It hit me a little tonight during fish school while we were passing around journals for everyone to write in. And then when I read what my fish kids and my fish husband wrote in mine, I kinda just couldn't keep the tears back any longer. I feel so blessed to have had this opportunity to be a leader to these freshmen. They each have a special place in my heart and I can't wait to see how God works in their lives.

Whew, on other news, I'm almost done with everything I need to have done for Preview for UF!!!! Just a few papers to hand in and then I'm all set! I'm 2 weeks away from graduating from Santa Fe (HOLLAAAA!) and then I'll be a student at the University of Florida. I can't believe that this moment is finally here! The school that my parents went to, that my grandparents went to, that my sister goes to is the same school that I will be going to! Eeeekkk!!! UF has such a special place in my family's hearts because so many of our family has gone there! I know my parents were soooo happy when I got it. This was the only school that they wanted me to go to, and let's face it, it's the only school I want to go to as well! So it all works out! Well, I'm off to bed. It's been a loooong day and I needs my sleep!! Toodle-oo lovelies!

Officially a Florida Gator!!!

This will be a short post but I wanted to let you lovelies know that I got in to UF!!! I'm officially in the ProTeach Unified Early Childhood program.!!! It's a long name, I know but I don't care cause I'm in it!!!!

Hope you lovelies have a fantastic day!!!! :))) Go Gators!!!!